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| Gruppe: Benutzer Rang: Newbies  Beiträge: 35 Mitglied seit: 29.04.2006 IP-Adresse: gespeichert  | Silence Is A Scary Sound © 2006 - May. ~*~*~*~*~*~ -Prologue- It all happened few months ago... We were just friends. Or I thought we were friends, until I realised I had more feelings for her, but it was too late. It was summer. Normally I would smile and enjoy the start of a new summer but now I couldn’t, not without her. She loved spring... It was the best season, whenever I asked her. I was walking all alone in empty park, it was already bit dark so there wasn't much people... She loved this park, it was her favorite place to come. I remember how we spent much time in this park, just me and her. We could just sit down on the grass and just chat, laugh or somtimes teas each other. The wind gently played with the leafs on the trees.Even though it was summer, it was still cold. I wrapped my jacket more around me looking up in the sky, it was beautiful. Stars were shining so brightly... Like her eyes. Those big eyes, color of chocklate brown. Full of life and happiness. She was the sort of person who could make a room lit up by simply smiling. She had most beautiful smile, those two dimples made her look absolutely stunning. I would watch her smile for hours, and that sometimes made her make that cute little frown appear on her forehead making me smile even more. She wasn't sort of person who liked people to stare her. She would be bit shy when it came to meet new people, but as soon as she gets to know you better she'll be hyperactive. She was just bubbly person that would make anyone near just smile. I sat down on nearest bench. My mind never leaving her. She was in my mind all the time. She was hunting me on my dreams. I wasn't the same these few weeks, it was like I became completely someone else, and boys started to notice it. 'Get Yourself together.. you'll get over it.' That's what they said to me, but deep inside I knew I would never do that. I just couldn't get over her. Boy's also missed her, a lot, but they just acted like real friends trying to cheer me up. As much as I was thankful of it... I wasn't ready to let go of her. She was just someone that everyone would love. Boy's loved her, and they all liked her around, just like I did.. And I just loved her so much. More than my own life no matter how cheesy it sounded. But did she ever knew that.. I don't know. The famous three words, I love you, were words that I hadn’t said to her yet. Love was something unexplainable to me, something magical. I knew I loved her, it was obvious because my feelings for her were strong and deep. But I was too afraid to say those three words. What if she didn’t feel the same for me? I just wish I would say those little three words sooner. I just didn't know how to get the words out of my mouth. If only... If only she was still here, I would have a chance to tell her that. I just wished that, from bottom of my heart. That won't happen though... She's gone. And I blew my chance to tell her. My thoughts were intruppted by my phone. I took it out from my pocket and looked at caller ID, and it was flashing 'Tom'. I sighed and placed it on my ear answering the call. ''Yeah...'' I said. ''Bill, where are you man? You said you would go for little walk, but you've been away for two hours now.'' Tom said in the other line. I closed my eyes sighing little.Then opening them again. ''I'm coming home soon.. Just got lost the track of time, don't worry'' I mumbled. ''Okay then, you might get lucky and have slice of pizza if you hurry.'' Tom said his tone sounding much happier now. I would guess he was grinning in the other line. ''Alright man, I'll see you'' I said ''ok, bye.'' I heard before I put it back to my pocket. As much as I didn't want to go yet. But it was time though or Tom would be here forcing me to go back home with him. Then I would be in situtation where he would ask what I was doing here, and we would end up talking about her. Making myself get up from bench I started walking back home. ~*~*~*~*~*~
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| Gruppe: Benutzer Rang: Newbies Beiträge: 35 Mitglied seit: 29.04.2006 IP-Adresse: gespeichert | Chapter. 1 - Bill. As I was getting near, and near the front door you could hear all the noise coming from those three. I'm just amazed that the neighbours haven't called the police yet. I opened the door kicking my shoes off and hanging my jacket. I reached living room, where they were all playing X-box. I slumped down on the sofa resting my head against the wall. ''Where were you man?'' Georg asked not taking his gaze away from telly. ''Yeah, we were getting worried that few fans kidnapped you or something.'' Gustav added he also keeping his gaze at the screen. ''Was in the park, nothing special..'' I said standing up, and making my way to kitchen. Kitchen looking as messy, as always. I grabbed plate, only clean one. Put last slice of pizza in it, and grabbing bottle coke with me. I walked upstairs to my room. I put the food on table next to my bed, and just collapsed down on the bed. I rested my back against the wall, picking up the photo that was always next to my bed. It was picture of me and her. Silently crying I ran my finger over her pretty smiling face, her arms wrapped around my neck as we posed for the picture. I wiped my eyes dry and brought the photo up to my lips and pressed a little kiss on it before looking at it again. Why did she have to leave me? I remember when this picture was taken. We were on that time doing our summer gigs, cos I wanted to show her how fun we had on gigs, so I decided to take her along. And that time we were in Berlin. We guy's had free day, and we all decided to have relaxing day, so we hit to nice park where we boy's were fooling around. It was one of my happiest day. We had real laugh. It was sunny day, and there wasn't of course any papparazzi taking stupid pictures of us, it was just us five having blast. Once again I was intruppted. This time knock on the door. ''Yeah?'' I once again said quietly. Door opened, and Tom's head popped around the door. ''Can I come in?'' he asked. ''Yeah, sure..'' I said. Tom got in, and sat down on the end of my bed. ''We had quick meeting with the manager today.. You remember? when you left I told you about it, and told you to come soon back.'' Tom exclaimed. I let out sigh ''I'm sorry. I forgot..'' I said quietly keeping my gaze on the picture. Tom sighed gently. ''We all miss May, Bill... But it's been month now. You have to get along with your life, and just move on.'' he said soflty. I quickly looked up at him. ''Just listen, have you ever lost someone that you love so much? I just can't push memorys of her away, and just move on!'' I snapped. ''I didn't mean you should block her out of your life totally.. I just mean, you should live your life. You're not the same Bill we knew..'' Tom said. ''I can't live my life anymore, and I won't be the same Bill ever again, not without her!'' I said anger in my tone. ''Bill..'' ''If you can't bring her back, just do me a favour and leave me alone!!'' I snapped. I laid back in the bed and turned on my side, not facing Tom. I heard how Tom got up and left my room. I closed my eyes, as burning tears rolled down my cheeks. This hard for me.. I usually told everything to my brother.. but this my personal..very personal. Deep inside I knew Tom wouldn't bring her back, no one could... Why did god take her away from me.
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| Gruppe: Benutzer Rang: Newbies Beiträge: 35 Mitglied seit: 29.04.2006 IP-Adresse: gespeichert | Chapter. 2 - Tom. I closed his door, and returned back to living room. ''How is he doing?'' I heard Gustav ask. I sat down on settee. ''Not good..'' I said quietly. ''Oh man.. He still don't know how to let go of May,huh?'' Georg asked. They stopped playing X-box as soon as they realized Bill was missing. ''No. Can't really blame him really. He loved her guy's, really loved her. If I was in his position, and lost the love of my life? I would be on serious breakdown. Seriously.'' I exclaimed while they nodded. We sat there for while on deep silence. Like always Gustav breaking it. ''I just don't know what to do, should we give him time.. Or should we talk to him?'' he asked. I didn't know how to answer on that, because I had the same question on my mind. Luckily Georg had answer on that. ''Maybe we should just give him some space, just let him breath. When it comes to that he needs someone to talk to.. Then we will be ready for him.'' Gustav said softly. ''You're totally right man... Let's do that'' I said. ''This whole situation makes me miss MayMay even more.'' I said sad. MayMay, is what we called her. Or M. We had lot's of nicknames for her. She was like little sister for us. We all loved her. Even though I knew her when we were 5 years old. But we all love her. Who wouldn't. She was always there for help, there for listen. If you had all the problem in the world. All you have to do is have a little talk with May, and you would feel much better. Even though she didn't live with us, she was always around. If she was back home for like a week, we would ring her and make her come back on next train. We would always have laugh. Just rent a movie, always have fight about it though. May would want some silly chickflick or some romantic film, where in the other hand we would want some action or horror film. But we always ended up watching those chickflicks. Cos she would give you puppyeyes, or she pinched you so badly that it would make you scream like a real girl. But at the end of day it didn't matter. As long as she was smiling, it was good. She was Bill's biggest love.. even though he always said he loved her so much, only as a friend.. but I knew he's real feelings for her. Hell yeah I did, I'm he's twin brother... But also Georg, and Gustav saw that.. Just the way he looks at her.. or the way he smiles whenever someone mention her name.. or that sparkle in his eyes when May walkes in to the room.. That was all love he had for her. But she was gone.. for good.. and Bill heartbroken.
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| Gruppe: Benutzer Rang: Newbies Beiträge: 35 Mitglied seit: 29.04.2006 IP-Adresse: gespeichert | Chapter. 3 - Bill. The faint light fell through the window into the bedroom, and onto my face as I lied staring at the ceiling. I closed my eyes. I can't sleep at all really. Just was lying on this bed doing nothing. I had few nights like this not getting any dream and ending up being all night awake. I rolled on her side. Yeah, her side. May always used to sleep on this side. I grabbed the pillow. Even tho it's been month, and a half since she slept here it still had the same smell as always. That amazing fresh smell. All I wanted to do was sleep because that was the only way I could see her. I rolled onto my side and took her pillow in my arms, taking in her scent as my mind took me back in time. *Flashback* ''Bill..wake up! Wake up, man.'' I heard, and opened my eyes to see May standing infront of me. ''Good morning! Up now.'' she said pulling the blanket of me. I rubbed my eyes sitting up.. ''May..? What's now?'' I asked her still half sleep. She frowned sitting down on my bed. ''You don't remember?'' she asked. I was silent for a while..thinking, but don't having any idea. She sighed heavily. ''This is the day you're meeting the bosses of Universal..'' she told me. As the secound she said, I jumped up. I heard her laugh. ''Don't laugh this is serious.'' I told her. ''I know it is..but don't panic..you have time. Thanks to me, for waking you up.'' she said with grin. I looked at her, and smiled gently. ''What would I do without you?'' I asked gently while looking at her. She giggled slightly. ''Probably..still sleeping..'' she said cheeky. I laughed shaking my head. ''That's right. Now get out..I wanna dress.'' I commanded her. She stood up saluting, and left before shouting.. ''Be quick with your silly hair do.'' I laughed to myself..starting to dress, and do my 'silly' hair do. As she liked to call. Even though she was my bestes friend,but she was pain in the arse sometimes..but that was May, and I loved her being like that. I got ready, and walked downstairs where May, Tom, Georg and Gustav were already waiting. ''Good, you're ready. Shall we go?'' Tom asked getting up. We all agreed, and left the house toward the record company. Today was the day we could know if we get signed. I was nervous, really nervous. We were sitting, and waiting until we were called.. My hand were shaking literlly, and May noticed it. I felt how she took my hand, and squeezed it. I looked up at her while she was smiling at me. ''Don't worry Billy..It's gonna be ok. I'm sure they'll accept you. Just don't doubt it.'' she said softly. I smiled gently. I nodded. ''Thanks.'' I said to her. ''For what?'' she asked with that smile ''for believing in us..and for being here for me. It means a lot for me, May..'' I exclaimed. I saw that twinkle in her eyes as she laughed slightly. ''Of course I do. I know you guy's.. and I sure do know that you boy's kick ass! Seriously..I'm sure they'll sign you..if they don't. I'll have some word with them, but that won't happen cos they will! And you'll be big, and famous..and you'll have many, many fans screaming your name..And btw I'm you number 1 fan, remember that. Oh..and of course I am here for you Billy.. I Wouldn't be anywhere else'' she said, making me feel much better than few minutes ago. I couldn't help than just pull her close to me, wrapping my arm around her shoulder. ''You're most amazing bestes friend in this whole world.. Did ya know that?'' I said looking down at her, while she looked up at me. ''Of course I know that.. You're most amazing best friend too, and I'm glad I have you.'' she said. At that moment door opened, and a woman walked out calling our names. We boy's stood up. ''I'll be here waiting.'' May said while smiling. I nodded walking in to the room. (After 60 minutes) After a while.. I opened the door.. and immediatly May jumped up from chair that she was sitting. ''What did they say?'' she asked serious looking at me with her big brown eyes, waiting for the answer. I looked at the boy's sad. They shook their head..''We didn't get record deal..'' I said with sad voice. She looked so shocked. Her eyes turning to the size of tennis ball..and jaw width open. ''WHAT? They didn't?? You serious??'' she asked me still not believing. I nodded again. ''Better believe... we didn't get it May..c'mon let's go home..'' I said taking her hand, but she pushed it away walking toward the office. ''May.. Where you going?'' I asked her ''Gonna have some chat with those men in their stupid suits.'' she said, as she was about to open the door I picked her up. I put her in my shoulder walking out off the building to outside..while May was screaming and kicking. I put her down once we were in good distance from the record compony, so she couldn't go in. ''Bill! what did you do that for? Those idiots there need some sense in their head.. cos obviously they are idiots for letting you go.'' she said anger in her tone. We laughed, and she looked more confused. ''What ya laughing for? This is not funny you guy's.'' she said getting annoyed at us. ''We better tell her before she runs again'' Georg said ''yeah..and kill our the bosses'' Tom continued. I kept laughing.. ''Tell me what? This getting annoying now.'' she said. ''Okay, okay calm down May.. We got the record deal.. we're signed.'' I told her. May's jaw dropped again. ''You serious this time..and you better not lie to me Bill Kaulitz.'' she said serious. I stopped the laughing. ''I'm serious May..We are gonna do our album.'' I told her. She screamed jumping at me, as she wrapped her arms around me. I laughed while hugging her. ''OMG! this is amazing. I knew you would get signed. Yeah!'' she screamed making us laugh. ''You know what?'' May asked as she pulled away from me. ''What?'' Gustav asked ''we need to celebrate this.'' she said with big smile. ''Very good idea May.'' Georg said ''yeah..and as our first fan..you can buy us the drinks girl'' Tom said we three cracking up. ''Okay Tom..you got this time..but don't get used to it.'' she said, and we left to celebrate.
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| Gruppe: Benutzer Rang: Newbies Beiträge: 35 Mitglied seit: 29.04.2006 IP-Adresse: gespeichert | Chapter.4 - May. I was so happy, and proud of boy's. They were working on, and recording their debut album: Schrei! And they were putting 110% on it. I was so sure it's gonna be one hell a album. They've been all these day's in studio, and you could see how much they enjoyd being there.. that happiness glowing from their faces.. that was something I wanted to see all these years.. and now boy's wish came true. I was sitting on my room, yeah.. I was living with them. Boy's made me move in with them, and I was kind happy I did. I streched my arms while shutting off the TV I was watching. I was kind wondering what boy's were doing , cos weird enough it was all quiet in the house... and this place wasn't quiet. I walked out of my room, and down the hall to Bill's room. I knocked the door. ''Yeah?'' I heard him say, and opened it getting in. ''Hey Skittles...'' Bill said looking up at me. ''Hi you..'' I smiled while sitting down next to him on the bed. ''What you doing?'' I asked while looking at him as he had notebook, and pen in his hand. He sighed ''trying to write this..'' he said fustration in he's voice. I laughed slightly ''you writting a song?'' I asked him. He nodded handing the notebook to me. ''It's just. I don't get nowhere with this song...'' he told me. ''Let me see it'' I said starting to read it. '' 'Rette Mich' Title sounds great man... But you only got three sentence'' I slightly laughed. ''Yeah.. I know'' Bill said frustrated. ''Okay.. Let me see. Can I have the pen? It's not for eating Billy.'' I said giggling. ''Oh. Sorry, here'' he said giving me the pen. Bill rested his head against the wall. There was silence,expect me mumbling quietly something to myself, and humming. Bill looked at me surprised ''you actually writing something?'' I heard him ask. ''Yup. Wait.. you'll have it soon.'' I said writing more, and then handing it back to him. He read it, and he's face all lit up. ''Oh my god! This is amazing May! Why didn't you tell me you're good at this?'' he asked moving his gaze up at me. I blushed ''I just wanted to keep it to myself. I had wrote alot of songs, but never showed it to anyone. But cos you needed help, I had to help ya'' I laughed. He smiled. ''You're amazing, thanks hunni'' he said giving me a hug. ''No probs, but promise me you'll never tell anyone.. Okay?'' I asked ''Why? You'll have credit of this, you did wrote half of it, and I need to just finish it.'' Bill asked frowning little. ''Naah.. No need for that, just don't tell anyone.'' I exclaimed. ''Please Billy..'' I added when I saw that he didn't say nothing back. He sighed ''if you want then'' he said. I smiled ''Thanks Bill, and telling you something. I think after you finished this song, it's gonna be awesome'' I said smiling, he smiling back. ''Where's other boy's?'' I asked him after he finished writing the song. ''Out... clubbing.'' he told me while rolling he's eyes. I chuckled. ''Tom after new girl now?'' I asked him, he nodded. ''And how long was he with the last one?'' ''a week.. it's kind record for him though.. normally his relationships only last one day.'' Bill exclaimed. I giggled shaking my head. ''Like he always say... I'm a PLAYER!'' he said imitating Tom. ''What about when you get famous... and there'll be many girls throwing themselves at you guy's..?'' I grinned. ''I think he'll throw himself back at them.. and become a pimp!'' he said making me laugh even more. He laughing too. There was a silence. Bill looked at me with a smile. ''It's kind a boring in here.. c'mon.'' Bill said taking hold of my hand, and leading me out of the room, and out of the house. Once we were outside I was curious to know where were we going. ''Billy hey.. wanna tell me where we going?'' I asked while we were walking. ''Super Market!'' he told me. I giggled ''Err.. that's nice.. but what we are buying?'' I asked ''Some Ice Cream..'' ''Yeah? Cool.. I was in need of that.'' I grinned, he grinning back. We walked to local Super Market chatting and laughing away, once we got there I ran towards candy section grabbing three pack of Skittles. Bill walked to me laughing. ''May.. no wonder I call you Skittles. Seriously, theree pack of Skittles is too much.'' he chuckled. ''Oh yeah.. well one was for you.. but I can put it back..'' I tried ''No.. don't I'll eat it.'' he grinned taking it from me. I laughed. We walked to ice cream section. We stood there for while searching for good ice cream before we looked at each other. ''Pretty poor choices,huh?'' he asked I nodded. Then I got major idea. ''Come with me.. I know better place.'' I said pulling him with me. We bought the skittles, and walked out of the shop. '' You know better place we could get a ice cream?'' he asked. ''Yeah.. McDonalds..'' I said with a grin. Soon it clicked at Bill too. ''You mean McFlurry?'' he asked I nodded. We both loved McFlurry so we walked to McDonalds. It was already bit dark.. but beautiful. Spring time was just beautiful time. ''Two McFlurry's with Daim please..'' Bill said once we arrived to McDonalds. We soon got our McFlurry's and started walking again while eating the McFlurry's. ''Where we going now?'' I asked ''To our secret place'' he said smiling '' to that old park?'' I asked getting excited. He nodded. I loved that park, and so did Bill. That was actually the place we first met. We sat down on two swings there when we were on the park. ''So.. tell me. What are you waiting from this music career..?'' I asked while eating the ice cream. Bill smiled a little. ''I don't know really... it haven't still started yet, but I hope we get successfull... and people would like our music, and hopefuly buy the album'' he said ''Well I'm sure they will, even I like it, and I usually choose my music taste very carefully.. you should be happy that you're in my music list.'' I teased him. He nudged me on the arm while laughing. ''Cheeky..'' he said. ''Who you calling cheeky?'' I asked with a grin while throwing one skittles at him. It hit him on the head, and he looked at me eyes width open. I cracked up. ''Don't..'' he warned me but I threw another one, and another and a third one. Bill stood up grabbing me. ''You pushed the button Skittles.'' he said, and started tickling me. ''NOOOO!! DON'T TICKLE!!'' I screamed while laughing. But Bill kept tickling me, and we fell down on grass as he still kept tickling me. ''BILL!!! I can't breathe.., don't tickle..hahhahahahhah'' I screamed while laughing. Then he stopped while laughing at me lying on the grass looking real mess. ''Shut up.. you'' I said while he helped me up. ''You started...'' he said with a grin. I stuck my tongue out at him making him laugh. ''Okay Skittles... peace?'' he asked stucking his hand out. I smiled shaking it as he pulled me close for hug. We stood just like that for while... Doing nothing. We had really blast time tonight. Chatting, and just having fun. I loved moment's like this with Bill, but little did I know... That this was one of last ones. Boy's were very busy with their album and everything, and they were becoming famous very quickly.
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| Gruppe: Benutzer Rang: Newbies Beiträge: 35 Mitglied seit: 29.04.2006 IP-Adresse: gespeichert | Chapter. 5 - Bill. Life couldn't get any better. Seriously. Two singles out, and a album. Funny enough we were already famous, well not that famous yet, but sure there was fans following us around all day long. We were already on the road doing our very first roadshows, and it's just amazing. This was our dream, and we were fulfilling it. We had tons of TV shows, radio shows, interviews, and stuff like that... It was also bit hectic to be honest we had to be up early in the morning, and it was all about working... non-stop. We've been on the road for like 3 weeks now, and we haven't been home since.. I haven't seen May for a while now. I wanted to ask her along, but she was busy with the school. Today though we were getting back home for well deserved few day's break. ''Okay boy's it's trip back home then.. excited?'' our manager asked. We smiled. ''Yeah.. can't wait, man.'' Tom said while slumping down on the car seat as we all get on. ''Seatbelts on boy's.. buckle up..!'' the driver said, as we did what we were told to. My cell vibrated on my pokect. I smiled to myself when I recieved a text msg from May. I look at the message, a smile slowly creeping across my face: Heya Billy... How's you today? Having fun in the other side of Germany?... I miss you already, Snuggles! May xxx... Still smiling I text her back.. Yeah? How was it..? I miss you more Skittles! Bill xxx… It just made me think about how much I’m looking forward to see her again. Holding her close. Smelling her hair. I really missed her these day's.... You know.. There wasn't someone you could laugh with... Well of course I had boy's.. and it wasn't that boring, but I missed her company.. It was diffrent without May.. Just missed her. But now I was going back home, going to see her again, and what's about it that May didn't have a clue about it. It was gonna be surprise for her when we get home. After few hours... I guess I must have fallen asleep, cuz the next thing I saw was the familiar buildngs and roads of Magdeburg. We were in home. Good to be back home, I smile to myself as we pull up the driveway to our apartment. ''Okay boy's.. get rest, and enjoy your break.. Cos next time we see..it's gonna be much busier. Bye.'' our manager said as we said bye back. We got out suitcases out of the car dragging them with us we made our way to the house. We heard loud music coming from it while we grinned looking at each other, May was once again having her Fall Out Boy cd on full blast. I laughed shaking my head as we got in. I dropped my stuff on the ground while walking in to the living room, but she wasn't there. ''May?'' I asked, but no answer. ''She must be in her room man..'' Gustav said. ''Oh.. yeah.. right. I'll check her from there.'' I blushed as I made my way to upstairs. I opened the door to find her sitting on the bed, and writing something probably her homework. She had her back on me so she didn't notice me. I grinned to myself walking to the stereos and turned the volume down. As soon as I did that May's head turned at me. ''BILL!!?'' she screamed her eyes becoming big. I chcukled. ''Heey Skittles.'' I said to her. May jumped up from the bed, and flew at me her arms wide open hugging me. ''When did you came?'' she asked after we pulled away her big eyes full of happiness while showing those two dimbles showing while she was smiling. ''Just now.. You didn't expect that,huh?'' I asked her while grinning at her. She giggled ''well.. no! I was just texting with you, and you didn't even mention that you were coming.'' she pointed out. I laughed. ''Yeah May, we call it surprise..'' I laughed at her. She frowned slapping me on the arm playfully while laughing again, and hugging me again. I smiled to myself while wrapping my arms around her. ''Are boy's here too..?'' she asked after few secounds, when she pulled away. I nodded smiling at her. ''Oh.. I wanna see them.'' she chirped running out of her room. I laughed shaking my head. So much energy in that small person. Even though she was short, and bit small... but defiantly didn't have small personality. That's for sure. I followed her down where May was greeting boy's. We dragged our stuff to our rooms, and sat down on the sofa to chat about everything we did on while we were on road.
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| Gruppe: Benutzer Rang: Newbies Beiträge: 35 Mitglied seit: 29.04.2006 IP-Adresse: gespeichert | Chapter. 6 - May. ''Sign her chest..?'' I asked amazed while boy's were telling me about their fans. Bill nodded. ''Yeah, Tom enjoyed doing it..'' he rolled his eyes. ''Yup. With pleasure!'' Tom said grinning. I laughed shaking my head at him. ''I saw you in Top Of The Pops once.. you guy's seemd like professional'' I giggled. They all had big smiles in their faces, and you could see that they were enjoying what they were doing, and no wonder.. it was their dream job. ''Umm.. May, when did you like cleaned this place?'' Gustav asked looking around. I did the same, and blushed 'cos this was looking like real mess. Bill laughed ''and you always complain how we are so messy...'' he said ''well... I would clean it before you guy's came, but no one didn't tell me about it.. so you just face this..'' I defended myself. ''and.. I had busy time with school, a - and.. and..'' I tried ''more excuses..?'' Tom asked sticking his ear out. ''Okay.. I give up.'' I said throwing my arms in the air. ''Yeah!!'' four of them said at the same time, and high fived. ''The pizza is here!'' Georg said excited jumping up, and ran towards the door. We all were lazy, so decided to just deliver a pizza, instead of cooking. ''You know I would cook..'' I suggested. Bill, Tom and Gustav looked at each other before bursting on hysterical laughter. ''What..?'' I asked puzzled. ''You remember that one day when you were making pasta.. and you throw tabasco in, you just left to watch some silly series on TV, and how kitchen was about to burn down?'' Tom asked. Oh.. They remember that one. They had way too good memory. ''Oh well.. mistakes happens, right?'' I asked biting my lip. ''Not everytime you try to cook, May.'' Bill pointed out. I shrugged.. ''Oh well.. I tried... not like you lazy-asses.'' I grinned standing up. I dragged myself to kitchen to get something to drink. I grabbed five coca-Cola. I get back to living room just in time to get my two pizza slices with tuna, before the guys throws themselves over the rest of the pizza. I’ve never seen anyone eat that fast before. It was as if they’d never seen food in their whole life! I just couldn’t help my self, so I burst out laughing at them. ''We going out tonight?'' Tom asked mouth full of pizza. ''Eww.. Tom! Don't speak food in your mouth!'' I said pulling a face. Tom grinned, and opened his mouth showing what he had in it. ''Oh that's it.'' I said lightly hitting him around the head. ''Ouch! Maaay..!'' he said holding his head. I grinned. Other three laughed. ''Yeah, why not. Let's have some good time!'' Bill chuckled. ''Yeah, and get drunk..!'' I suggested. Bill quickly looked at me. ''Oh, no.. You're so not getting drunk once again... I remember how it was last time.'' Bill said nodding. I stuck my tongue out. ''Too late.. I'm going.'' I grinned jumping up, and running up to my room to get ready. I opened the door, and sat down on my bed taking the pills that were next to me in my hand. I looked at them for a while, when I suddnly heard footsteps coming from downstairs. I quickly throw the pills under my bed, and quickly standing myself up. As I knew, Bill popped his head around the door. ''Hey, May. You better hurry up.. we're like leaving in 30 minutes,k?'' he grinned fully knowing that I was so not going to be ready in such time. ''But..'' I gotta say before he disappeared. ''Oh great.'' I thought to myself. I opened my wardrobe and scanned my clothes, wondering what to wear. I grabbed my low-cut dark jeans, white-black stirpes shirt.. and black jacket. Straghtening my hair I was ready. I sat down to applie some make-up on.. My usually number one make-up..eyeliner was must. Bit of mascara, and gloss on the lips I was ready. I looked around for my cell, and key's, and took quick look on the mirror grinning to myself. ''Maaayy...!!'' I heard Bill yell from downstairs. ''Sh!t.'' I said, I forgot I had only 30 minutes to get ready. I quickly ran out of my room, closing it behind me. Trying to spare some time, I jump down the stairs one at the time while trying to tid my hair on ponytail. That was not a good idea. Me being me, I manage to trip and fall down half the stairs. I end up in a big pile on the floor, with my hair all over my face,Oops! ''Auch.. bad idea..'' I mumbled to myself lying on floor. I look up to find all three staring at me. ''Don't even dare..'' I said, but cut on them bursting on fit of laughter. Oh great, just this was all I needed. Bill walked to me, and helped me up while laughing. ''Shut up, you.'' I said laughing myself. ''That was fantastic May.. how you managed to do that to yourself?'' Tom asked killing himself in laughter. I shot him a evil look, and it worked. He stopped laughing. ''Little clumssy MayMay...'' he continued sticking his tongue out. ''Oh just wait..!'' I said trying to catch him, but he started running. Having bit trouble with those baggy jeans of his. I laughed, and ran after him out of the house. He was holding them up while running, and yelling. ''I take it back May.. just don't take my cap..It was expensive!'' he said. I just giggled. ''Okay Tom, I give up... just stop running you look stupid.'' I giggled. Tom stopped, and looked back at me with relieved look grinning. ''Wait up you guy's..'' we heard Bill say while him, Gustav and Georg ran to us. We made our way to the local club. The music blasted through the club and people swayed their hips to the beat as we pushed our way through the crowd trying to find table. Finally we reached a table and sat down. ''Hellow ladies..!'' Tom, and Georg said already hitting on some girls on the dance floor. I giggled looking at them. Those two were real flirty-machinese.. always hitting on girl. ''Here's the drinks. First round was by me. Next one will be you Bill!'' Gustav said pointing at Bill. I laughed at the face he pulled. ''Thank You!'' Tom, and Georg said taking their drinks and immediately disappeared into the crowd again. The club was just awesome, they were playing Fall Out Boy's - Dance, Dance.. and me being me... I was singing along to it. ''Dance, Dance We're falling apart to half time. Dance, Dance'' I was signing. I heard Bill laugh next to me. I looked at him. ''what?'' I asked with smile. ''You remember how you flipped when I took you to Fall Out Boy's gig on your B-day?'' he asked me. I blushed immediately remembering it. ''Yeah, my throat hurt from all the screaming in the gig.'' I said laughing. ''But I loved it, Pete Wentz was absolutely sexy jumping up and down on stage, aw.. I love him.'' I said, dreaming away. Soon I was pinched, getting back to reality. ''Oh soz.. C'mon let's dance Bill!'' I grinned standing up, pulling him up with me, as we made our way to the dance floor. ''May.. You know I'm not type of dancing..'' he said. I laughed. ''I know that.. but you're so dancing.'' I grinned. We had just blast, and even Bill relaxed a bit, and started dancing more. Suddnly I felt sharp pain on my stomach, and I stopped dancing. Bill noticed that, and looked at me confused. ''You alright?'' he asked. I took deeb breath nodding. ''Yeah.. I just need to go to the toilet.. I'll be back soon..'' I mumbled, as Bill nodded. I made my way through the crowd and to the ladies room. I opened the door and lead to the sink while looking in the mirror. Same pain came again, and I hold my stomach... This wasn't the first time.. and I went to doctor about it, but all they did was give me some pain killers for it, saying that it would go away eventually. I just hope that.. I took deep breath splashing some cold water in to my face, and I got out of the ladies room. Just to have some fun...
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| Gruppe: Benutzer Rang: Newbies Beiträge: 35 Mitglied seit: 29.04.2006 IP-Adresse: gespeichert | Chapter. 7 - May. Next morning... I woke up in very bad headache, seriously I thought my head was about to blow up! I got up from the bed, and out of my room. Slowly I walked down the stairs and switched on a light in the living room, only to see Tom, and Georg spread across the floor with mouths slightly open and both snoring loudly. I giggled and stepped over them to go to the kitchen where I put the kettle on and got some cups out. As I did so I felt a sharp pain go through my belly. Wincing with pain I managed to fill a glass of water, then opened the cupboard and rummaged through it until I found what I was looking for. With shaking hands I took two pills and downed them in one with a large sip of water. Just as I swallowed them I heard Bill enter the kitchen, his hair all over. ''Morning Skittles...'' he said rubbing his eys. ''Hey'' I replied smiling at him as he poured a cup of coffee. I sat down at the kitchen table and sighed deeply. Bill turned his head into my direction, a frown on his face. ''Are you okay? You look pale'' he said worriedly placing his coffee down on the table. ''I’m fine. I guess I had a bit too much to drink last night'' I said smiling at him, hoping he would believe me. Bill shrugged gently and sat down opposite of me, taking the paper to read what was happening in the rest of the world. As I watched him my mind got lost in a world of its own. I felt another pain in my belly and I bit my bottom lip, quickly glancing over at Bill hoping he hadn’t seen it. He didn’t and continued reading the story. The pain faded away and I ran a hand over my face. Truth was that the pains weren’t from drinking too much. I had been having them for some weeks now, and slowly but surely they were getting more painful. All of sudden my cell vibrated. I grabbed it, and it was flashing.. 'Emzzie'. I smiled and answered. ''Yoo, hey, ho!'' I heard she scream in the other line. I giggled ''what's up Emz?'' I said. I saw Bill look up at me, and grin. ''Good...what you doing?'' she asked ''Nothing... you..?'' I asked her. ''Was just wondering if you could drag your ass, and come with me to the town.. I need some shopping.'' she said. I smiled. ''Yeah, sure.. That would good.'' ''Okay good, I'll come around.. see ya soon..!'' she said ''okay byee'' I said, and pressed the red button. ''You girls going out for long shopping session..?'' Bill asked. I laughed, and nodded. ''Yup.. gonna shop.. till I drop.'' I grinned, and stood up. ''What you boy's gonna do..?'' I asked. he shrugged. ''Don't know... I'm probably going back to sleep..'' he said grinning. I smiled, and left the kitchen.. just to stop to look at those two still sleeping on the floor. I grinned, and got a nice idea. I kneeled down at their level... waiting for a while before I screamed so loud in their ears: ''GOOD MORNING!!''. They both shot up looking around. ''Where, what..??'' Tom said looking around. I laughed, and left them there. I got up, and quickly got changed. As I got down, door bell went. I opened the door to come face to face Emz with big smile in her face. ''Good morning!'' I smiled giving her a hug, and let her in. ''Morning! you ready to go..?'' she asked. ''Yeah sure.. I'll just grab my jacket, and we're ready to go.'' I said running to get to living room. ''Heey Emz'' Bill said who came to us. ''Oh, Bill.. I didn't know you guy's are here.. Hi. How are you doing?'' she asked him. Those two starting a convo I walked to get my jacket, accidently to bump at Tom.. who still looked like mess teling the truth. ''That earlier wasn't funny May..'' he mumbled. I laughed slightly. ''Soz TomTom.. but you should see yourself.. had a rough night?'' I asked him while we walked downstairs. ''Oh Yeah..! It was just wild.. all those girls..whoa!'' he said, and started telling me all the girls he's been flirting with. I just rolled my eyes at him, and laughed. We walked to living room where Emz was sitting. ''Oh, Emzzie is here.. hey girl.'' Tom said smiling at her. ''Heey Tom.'' she smiled back.. and there was little pause where they just kept staring at each other. I looked up at Bill, and he at me as I grinned.. ''Shall we go then..?'' I asked breaking the ice. ''Oh.. yeah. Let's go.'' she said moving her gaze away from Tom, and up at me. I chuckled. ''I'll see you guy's later...'' I said to them as they waved back. We got out of the house.. and as soon as I closed the door Emz started bombing me with thousands questions. ''Why didn't you tell me the boy's were back..?'' she asked. I grinned. ''Well.. I jsut wanted to see your face.. and telling you the truth, it was priceless..'' I giggled. ''Hahah.. so funny May.. But, damn.. he looked good..'' she grinned. I looked at her surprised, and shook my head laughing. ''Good..? The guy looked like real mess with his hangover.''I laughed. She hit me playfully on the arm while stucking her tongue out. We linked our arms, and started our grazy shopping marathon.. never getting tired of it. I've known Emz so long that I remember... And, she had a thing for this little gansta. ''So.. Tom, seeing someone..?'' she asked. I just giggled at her shaking my head. ''Nope.. You going to make your move someday this year..?'' I asked her while we were sitting on little cafeteria after we stopped shopping. She blushed drinking her coffee. ''I will, I will.. You'll see..'' she said nodding her head. I just laughed at her. ''That's what you said last time..'' I told her and grinned. ''See you hun..'' I said to her while waving. ''Yeah, say hi to Tom from me.'' she giggled. I got out of the bus. The bus pulled up and I smiled at Emz who waved back, stepping back as the bus began to drive. I walked back to the house. I opened the door, and for my suprise I was smelling food. Where they cooking?, I asked myself, and dropped my bags down, and walked to kitchen to find all four there. ''Okay.. I'm dreaming, and I will soon wake up to find you guy's with pizza, and other junk food..right?'' I asked. They laughed, and shook their head. ''Nope.. we're cooking!'' Bill said with big smile. ''This is weird day..'' I said, and laughed. ''What are you cooking..?'' I asked walking to the food, and smelled it. ''Spaghetti Bolognese..'' Gustav said making the pasta. I smiled. ''I have say this smells pretty good.. Not sure of how it will taste..'' I teased him. ''Heeyy.. you little..'' he said as I grinned. I walked out of the kitchen to hall where Bill was already looking at my bags. ''Heey! Bill..'' I said ''You bought all that today?'' he asked amazed. I nodded my head with a smile. ''You're seriously shopholic!'' he laughed. Suddnly the pain came back, and I let out a moan. Bill looked up at me. ''What's wrong?'' he asked coming up to me. I closed my eyes for a while, and thank god the pain got away. ''Umm.. nothing.. I need to go to the toilet.'' I quickly said, and ran upstairs to the bathroom. Suddenly I felt dizzy again and I quickly sat down on the bathtub, closing my eyes as I let out a deep sigh. I felt the need to be sick so I quickly got up again. ''May…everything okay in here?'' Bill called knocking on the door. Slumping down against the wall I wiped my mouth and didn’t answer him, so seconds later the door went open. Bill popped his head around the door and his eyes widened as he caught side of me. ''What are you doing on the floor?'' he asked worriedly, kneeling down in front of me. I brought my eyes up to his and closed them for a second as I felt yet another pain in my belly. ''Can you help me up please? I don’t feel that good'' I said. Bill nodded but before he lifted me up in his arms he felt my forehead which was boiling. Slowly we walked to my bedroom and Bill gently laid me down, pulling the covers over my cold body. ''I'm calling the doctors'' he said. Before I could object he had already left the room and jogged downstairs.
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| Gruppe: Benutzer Rang: Newbies Beiträge: 35 Mitglied seit: 29.04.2006 IP-Adresse: gespeichert | Chapter. 8 - May. I opened my eyes to find myself in hospital room. ''Oh, you're awake.'' I heard, and turned aroudn to see doctor. ''What happened, where's Bill..?'' I asked sitting up. The doctor smiled gently coming up to me. ''your boyfriend is outside waiting.'' he said going through some papers. Wait a minute, boyfriend? ''Oh noo.. he's just my friend.'' I corrected him. ''Oh, okay.. Sorry.. I just assumed that he was your boyfriend..'' he said. ''That's okay.. Can you tell me what's wrong with me?'' I asked. ''No, not yet.. We did run some test, and we can have the results in two day's.. so that's when we can tell you.. Until then you just have to wait.'' he told me. I nodded. ''Can I go home..?'' I asked. I didn't like hospitals, they just made me go all dizzy, and didn't felt good. ''Yeah, sure you can.'' he said ''Thank you doctor.'' I said shaking his hand, and opened the door to find Bill sitting there. His mind probably far, far away from here. ''Bill...'' I said softly walking to him. He shot up from his seat, and came up to me. ''May! How are you feeling? What did the doctor say, can you go home now?'' he asked all those questions less in half minute. ''Okay now, calm down Bill..'' I slightly laughed. ''Don't laugh, it's serious, and just answer the questions.'' he said waiting for answer.''Okay, okay.. I'm feeling fine,and the doctor doesn't know what's wrong with me yet . He said I would get the resaults in two day's.. and yes, I can go home.. Happy now?'' I asked smiling at him. Bill smiled back, and pulled me close to him while wrapping his arms around me. ''I'm just glad you're okay.. you got me really worried in there..'' he whispered in my ear.''Sorry about that.. can we go home? I'm feeling so tired..'' I said softly to him. We pulled away from each other as Bill nodded. ''Yeah, let's get you tucked in under those blankets.'' He grinned, and took my hand as we got out of the hospital. I was just one lucky girl to have friend like Bill. He was always there for me when I most needed him, and that's what I liked about him most. He was just amazing person. While we were walking back home few fans spotted Bill, and of course they came screaming to him. This was actually the first time I saw Bill with his fans. He was just smiling away while giving them autograhps, and took pictures with them. Even though that was sweet sight, but still I felt like something was burning up inside of me. I felt like those girls were stealing Bill away from me... Now that weird, I never felt like that.. I shook my head trying to push those thoughts away from my head. I couldn't be jealous now.. could I? ''May..'' I heard Bill say, making me snap of my thoughts. ''Yeah?'' I asked looking at him, when I realised that the fans had left. ''Where were you?'' he asked smiling gently. ''Oh, nowhere.. just in my thoughts..'' I mumbled. He laughed ''Okay, shall we go then?'' he askee as I nodded, and we started walking again. When we got home, I found Tom, Gustav, Georg and even Emzzie there. ''Heey you guy's..'' I smiled walking to living room. Emz jumped up and ran to me ''You alright? Tom called me, and told me what happened..'' she asked. I smiled, and looked at Tom. Moving my gaze back at Emz ''yeah, I'm alright now..no need to be worried.'' I told them. ''What did the doctors say?'' Gustav asked. ''Well.. I let Bill to excplain you all.. I need my bed..'' I said to them as they nodded. ''Hey, wait up.. I'll come with you.'' Emz said as I nodded, and we walked upstairs to my bed room. ''Now.. you tell me everything.. when did this started?'' Emz asked while we were sitting on my bed. I first hesitated telling, but decided to tell after all.. I just needed to share with someone this. ''I had some pains for few weeks now.. and this is the first time they got much worse..'' I told her quietly. ''You haven't told anyone about this?'' she asked. I shook my head. ''No, not even Bill...'' I mumbled. ''Do you know what it is then..?'' she asked. I shook my head again. ''I'll have the resultas after two days..'' I said looking at my hands. We chatted more about what happened, but what earlier happened, and what the doctor said kept bothering me in my head. ''Emz..'' I said softly. ''Yeah?'' she asked looking up at me. ''What did you first thought when you first met me, and Bill..?'' I asked her. She smiled. ''Don't laugh, but I seriously thought you two were a couple or something..'' she said. I bit my lip.. just the answer I was afraid of to hear. ''What made you think so?'' I asked her. She let out a giggle. ''Well.. the way you two act.. Seriously, if I still didn't knew you two.. I still would think you're together... Just the way you look at each other, and talk.. and stuff like that.'' she said. Was it really like that? Me, and Bill.. a couple.. That thought hasn't never, ever pop in to my head. It seemd crazy thought to me. ''Why? You have feelings for him???!'' she asked her eyes turning to size of tennisball. I slapped her in the arm playfully. ''Noo! you idiot.'' I laughed. ''Heey! Don't call me idiot.'' she said and slapped back. I laughed. ''but you are..'' I said slapping back, and that's when the hell got loosen. Emzzie grabbed pillow, and started hitting me with it. Well I didn't just sat there to be beaten.. I did the same thing, and that's when the pillow war started. Of course ending on me being beaten up on the floor. ''Okay, I give up..'' I said waving my arms in the air. Door opened, and Bill got in. He looked down at me, and bursted on laughter. ''Skittles... what you doing down there..? I thought you were getting some sleep..'' he said walking up to me. I stood up. ''Yeah, I wanted when this dumb ass here started pillow war.'' I said while looking at grinning Emzzie. ''hah! I always win.'' she grinned. ''I'm gonna go downstairs.. see ya guy's..'' she said, and left. Yeah right, just to go, and flirt with Tom, I thought and got in my bed. Bill laughed, and sat down on the bed next to me. ''What?'' I asked him. ''It's just you guy's.. You just got out of the hospital.. and already are fooling around..'' he said. I grinned. ''That's just me.. but seriously.. I'm feeling okay now.. Thanks to you.'' I smiled looking up at him. Bill smiled gently. ''No need to thank Skittles.. I'm always here for you.. Come here.'' he said opening his arms for me. I got in, and buried my head on his shoulder. [Next Day] We were out with Emz, doing some food shopping cos boy's are way too lazy to do it. So they sent me to do that. My cell started to ring. I grabbed it from my pocket, and answered it. ''Hello?'' I asked cos it was unknown number. ''Hi, it's Doctor Goodenberg here..'' I heard. ''Oh yeah, Hi..'' I said getting bit nervous. ''Could you come by the hospital.. we have your resaults in here..'' I heard him say. ''Yeah, sure I can..'' I said. ''Who was it?''Emz asked when I put the cell away. ''It's from hospital.. I need to go there'' I told her as she nodded. ''Okay, you go.. I'll do the rest shopping.'' she said smiling. ''That's good, see ya later.'' I said and waved. I made my way to the hospital. I was sitting on doctors office, nervouse as hell.. just waiting the resaults. Soon the door opened,and the doctor got in with blue file. he walked to his desk, and sat down. Looking at the papers for a while, I felt how my heart beat got faster, and faster. He looked up, and I tried to study his face.. just to get something out from his expression, but I couldn't. ''In this resaults..'' he started. I was waiting, and waiting. Was it that bad? So bad that even the doctor couldn't say it. ''Your uter got worse May.. much worse.. it's cancer..'' he said softly. My heart froze. I felt like air vanished away from my lungs, and I couldn't breath. ''W-w- what..? Cancer...?'' I asked not believing what I just heard. The doctor fixed his glasses, and nodded. ''I'm really sorry about it..'' he said. No..! No. This couldn't be. I was only 16 years old. I couldn't have cancer. ''How..how can I have cancer? I'm too young to ahve cancer..'' I exclaimed. ''I'm afraid to say.. when it comes to cancer.. it's not about the age..'' ''are you sure? Is it impossible that you mixed the resaults?'' I asked, just hoping there was some good explantions in this. But no.. doctor shook his head. ''We did the test three time, just to be sure, and each time we got the same resaults.'' he told me. My mind was blank. I didn't know what to think anymore.. I just sat there saying nothing. ''But I can tell you that.. it's not that bad. The cancer is little now.. with medicines we can stop it..'' he said. I looked up at him. ''You sure about it?'' I asked him. ''Yes.. Just make sure to take these medicenes...'' he said giving me them. I looked at them, and sure there was a lot of pills. ''What about if these medicense can't help me? What if the cancer get worse?'' I asked him. Doctor was silent for a while. Before sighing. '' Then there's 80% that you might die in to it..'' he said. When I heard what he said, I felt like something hard hit me right in to my head. I stood up. ''I-I- I need to go..'' I mumbled, and walked out of the office. I started walking, just walking never knewing where my legs were taking me. I kept walking, and walking when I found myself in that park. Mine and Bill's park. I sat down on bench while tears rolled down my cheeks. I just sat there, just trying to sink all in. I just sat there for like an hour, before I decided that it was time to go back home. ''You got the resaults?'' Bill asked when I got home. I was silent for a while before I nodded. ''And..? What was it?'' he asked as I sat down. I looked down at my hands for brief monet before moving my gaze up at him. ''It wasn't nothing serious... Just dizzy moment.. Nothing to worry about it..'' I told him. Bill looked at me before hugging me. ''That's awesome news May!'' he said happily.Deep inside I felt bad lying to Bill..
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